Confessions of a Yoga-holic

I blog/write professionally, but I can't seem to get any work done right now. The solution--create my own blog that's about me. Being the ego-maniacal personal that I am, I have a feeling that this is going to be the start of a great relationship.

Okay, a little about me. I've been doing Bikram for the past 2+ years. I've finally gotten over my fear of trying a different type of yoga (I went to a Vinyasa flow class with my friend, but thought that it was much to sissy for my taste), and I now realize that Bikram is the yoga for me. It's unfortunate that it is so expensive. But if I had to choose between paying more rent for a bigger room (I currently live in a closet) or doing Bikram, I'd choose the yoga, hands down. That being said, I've been rather broke for the past 3 months, and have had to forgo the 5 times a week practice that I had been adhering to.

It took some time away for me to really discover how much Bikram has changed my life. I have never been so enthusiastic about anything else. I have recently discovered that Yoga of the People offers $5 bikram classes (though they can't call it "bikram" because of the trade-mark), so I have been going about once a week. I would go much more often, but they only offer the class once a day, and it's often so packed that I can't put my mat down. Sorry, I digress...

I've been particularly bummed because, prior to my 3 month vacation, I had been really getting GOOD and making some huge emotional strides. What's a yogi to do when they can't do yoga? My backbends were particularly stellar. Now, when I go to my weekly class, I feel as feeble and weak as an old lady, and it really gets me mad. I know I can do the poses better if I were able to practice more often! It is very frustarting. Bikram has done so much for my body and mind, but now it's inaccessible. Where are my millions of dollars? I'd spend it all on yoga.